Teringat kamu #1

Bagaimana mungkin aku melupakanmu. Kita berada di satu kelas selama 4 tahun. Meski memang itu sudah lama. Lebih tepatnya ketika kita sama sama berada di sekolah dasar. Sebelum pemisahan kelas laki laki dan perempuan, aku memperhatikanmu terkadang. Kamu tinggi. Termasuk anak yang pintar. Seperti anak laki laki seumuranmu kala itu, kamu anak yang suka bercanda.
Kala itu kita sedang antri untuk ujian praktik sholat jenazah. Tentu saja aku menyibukkan diri dengan menghafal doanya. Bukan hal yang mudah untuk menghafal doa itu, dulu. Lalu kamu bersama kedua teman mu melakukan sebuah drama kecil.
Dalam drama kalian, ada adegan tembak. Kemudian setelah satu tertembak, yang lain menyolatkan. Ternyata orang yang di solatkan belum meninggal. Dia mengarahkan pistolnya ke orang yang sedang menyolatkan. Kemudian kalian semua meninggal.
Jika dipikir sekarang, skenarionya benar benar aneh. Tapi waktu itu aku diam diam tertawa. Dan mungkin lupa bahwa aku harus menghafal bagaimana cara sholat jenazah. (01)

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it’s not only about me,
it’s about you and see, i can do what i want.
i can just run away, or shut every one out, as i always did.
thanks for disturbing me for a while.
and make me think, a lot.
but you don’t know me. really don’t know me.

 

this just me and my messed mind. i thought a lot of something lately, thought over it again and again, till i realize that i really have to stop it.

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this world is too wide to be explored by your own self.. all you need just some friends then you’ll see brighter day

it was token when it was rain at noon..

weekly wringing challange : i wish i were

it’s kind a title that force us to publish our wish that didn’t come true yet, isn’t it?

after reading the test paper, i usually said i wish i were studying this material, so i can answer that question. and when i said that it means that the night before exam i didn’t study at all, and i didn’t pay attention in the class. and after knowing my score i wish i were not underestimate that subject, i wish i were smart enough then i can make my parents proud of me. and finally it will came to the situation that i blame my self for being born and being such a burden to my parent, such a shame in my family. at that time i will realize that i should study harder to get something that i want, but as time passed by that spirit will disappear. so whenever my laziness came, i remember that i had made my parents disappointed.