shizuku : i read that when people feel anxious, they crave human contact.


must get better !

in this mid test i had really bad score, and i cant blame everyone but myself. in the test week, i never study, i didn’t pray enough (i mean i feel so far from God), and my attitude against my parents wasn’t good. when i told my mom, she was very upset. and to be honest to know that she was upset is making me realize that i’m not a daughter who can make her proud, suddenly all of pain appear and it feels really hurt. the cause of it is really simple, its just because i’m too lazy. so from that day i dont want to make her upset again, and i learn that :

exam score is equal to your effort (how had you study), attitude against parents, and how close you to God.

mom, forgive me for not being a daughter that can make you proud.

Happy birthday to my self..

this year i purposely not telling anyone about my birthday.. and the result is my parents is the first person that me “happy birthday,” also the fact parents are always pray for their child, even parents didn’t say “happy birthday” or they never celebrate it, they always pray for their children.
and to me even if celebrating birthday is not my family’s habit, but my friends often ask me to celebrate it.. so tonight, i make my own cake for my own birthday, sound pity, isnt it?